it makes you think, why does peanut butter go with jelly..

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 18:27:00 GMT

just one big ..............................

Whatever

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 04:26:40 GMT

haha me sara and sam are so bored we are talking about live journal....what losers.... :)

my life has come down to this...

yay!!!

Sat, 15 Jul 2006 15:11:04 GMT

IM Going to The Red Sox Game today!!!!!!.....me and Matt have been official for a year today and i can say it is the best thing that has ever happened to me...<3 IM IN LOVE WITH MATT AND THE SOX!!!!!!

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 04:01:17 GMT

so i officially cant stand stuff anymore...ive decided i dont want friends anymore....

friends are to much work and im getting carpal tunnel from always have to be the one that calls to make plans....its fuckin sickining...so fuck it....if you wanna be my friend pick up the damn phone and fuckin call otherwise you arent a friend merely someone who just think they know me...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im so angry at life!!!!

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 20:44:47 GMT

^{People need to start cheering up... all this depression is driving me nutts.... i work from 7:30 in the morning untill 4 then i go to class from 5 untill 9:30... yea its alot but you know what it is worth it... iv been doing awesome and it actually isnt that bad.... i have no life now, but im dealing with it.... everyone gets dealt a hand and trust me it will not always be pockets aces but you still gotta make the best of it.... i learned that complaining just makes it worse.....}
PS.... its summer HAVE FUN!!!!

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 20:19:07 GMT

lets just say that was strangely weird... o well....my summer is going to be full of shit might as well start now...........

.......... i need to swin and tan and then look like i actually have skin instead of being see through, that will make everything better....

Wed, 31 May 2006 02:47:49 GMT

^{_{Lets see if this ends up happening???

if not....

Fuck It}}

Mon, 29 May 2006 05:36:37 GMT

Tonight made me realize something, when you get home from college after your first year away, everything will never be the same.......

When you miss someone dont you wanna see them....~~well i used to think that.....~~

My mom was telling me tonight that none of what ive been doing is worth it....the people i want in my life are the people who treat me well, will always be there for me, and occasionaly be the first to call and make plans, and who i can laugh with and cry with all in the same day,

i have those people in my life already......by the time you get out of college the amount of true friends you have can be counted on both sets of fingers, well in my case all i really need is a high five because that is all it takes.....

is my number really hard to dial???

who knows, all i know is my time this summer is precious and it will not be wasted...

Sun, 14 May 2006 21:04:38 GMT

i suck at life and therefore my summer will suck....

i missed passing anatomy 2 by 5 points and now i have to take the class over in the summer for a month, 4 dyas a week 4 hours a day of just anatomy, someone kill me....

then i was suppose to go to ocean city, but now cause of this class i can't go....grrrr

still don't have a car!!!!!

im working everyday all summer, so for a month i will go to work for 7:30 and not get home till 10:00 due to school and work....grosssssssssss....

~~YAY~~

at least i have Matt...o wait im barely allowed to see him due to my stupid class and my mom wants me to passs.... :(

sometimes you just gotta roll with it, cause my hips don't lie and i'm just the girl next door and you can have whats left of me....

hahaha

Fri, 28 Apr 2006 03:51:33 GMT

yo momma's like the ocean tons of people have been in her and there's crabs everywhere.
yo momma's like a tag sale old, used and cheap...

i made those two up

stole this from kerrie....

1. I like gerber daisies
2. I’m the new programming specialist next year in aubie
3. I suck at standing up for myself
4. I dont get embarrassed easily
5. i do get hurt easily
6. I love my boyfriend and miss him so much when im away
7. I don't like bitchy girls
8. I spend way too much time worrying
9. I miss my grandma everyday of my life

1.What curse word do you use the most?
shit

2. Do you own an iPod?
yes.

3. Who on your Myspace "Top 8" do you talk to the most?
matt and kasey

4. What time is your alarm clock set for?
tons of different times

5. How many suitcases do you own?
one

6. Do you wear flip-flops even when it's cold outside?
yes who doesn't

7. Would you rather take the picture or be in the picture?
be in it

8. What was the last movie you watched?
ice age 2

9. Do any of your friends have children?
nope i dont have sluts as friends

10. Has anyone ever called you lazy?
my mom

11. Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep faster?
yes

12. What CD is currently in your CD player?
none who uses cds

13. Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
regular

14. Has anyone told you a secret this week?
nope

15. When was the last time someone hit on you?
never that requires a hot girl

16. Can you whistle?
nope

17. Who was the last person to text you?
no one

18. Do you think people talk about you behind your back?
yea...even my parents do

19. did you watch cartoons as a child?
duh

20. How many siblings do you have?
tons enough said

21. Are you shy around the opposite sex?
nope

22. What movie do you know every line to?
tons of them

23. Do you own any band t-shirts?
good charlette from forever ago

24. What is your favorite salad dressing?
ranch

25. Do you read for fun?
nope

26. Do you do your own dishes?
yes

27. Have you ever cried in public?
yes

28. Do you have a desktop computer or a laptop?
laptop

29. Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
nope

30. What is the weather like?
nice and sunny

31. Would you ever date someone covered in tattoos?
maybe depends if he was nice

32. Do you have an online journal?
yes you dumbass

33. When was the last time you slept on the floor?
like a week ago

34. How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
3 to 4

35. Do you eat breakfast daily?
never i can't eat that early

36. Are your days full and fast-paced?
yes

37. Did you ever get in trouble for talking in class?
all the time

38. Do you pay attention to calories on the back of packages?
never...that stuff is listed

39. How old do you act?
depends on the mood im in

40. Are you picky about spelling and grammar?
nope

41. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
yes tons of times

43. Do you get along better with the same or opposite sex?
Opposite

44. Do you like mustard?
on hot dogs yummy

45. Do you sleep on your side, tummy, or back?
everything

46. Last person you called?
matt and he didnt answer :(

> ringtone: nothing my phone is gay

-> middle name: Megan

-> sign: virgo

WHAT COLOR:
-> is your hair: dark brown
-> are your eyes: bright green
-> are your nails: i bite them off so who cares
-> are your socks: plain white

RIGHT NOW:
-> the closest thing to your left hand: my phone waiting for a phone call
-> what's in your pockets: nothin i dont have pockets in my pjs
-> are you hungry: nope
-> are you thirsty: yes very
-> what are you sitting on: my computer chair
-> where are you: my dorm
-> is the light on?: yes

ONE OR THE OTHER:
-> cat or dog: dog
-> cookies or cake: cookies
-> school or work: school
-> apple or banana: bananas
-> bed or couch: bed
-> shower or bath: shower
-> cingular or verizon: cingular
-> ps2 or xbox: ps2
-> whipped cream or cherries: cherries

FAVORITE:
-> animal: kangaroos
-> coin: quarters
-> drink: rasberry ice crystal light
-> pokemon: the little orange dragon guy

RANDOM:
-> how many fingers do you have: 10
-> what do you wish you were doing right now: hugging my boy
-> what's the last thing you bought: pizza tonight
-> are you wearing a belt: nope

LAST:
-> drink: fresca
-> meal: pizza
-> word you said: byebye
-> word typed: byebye
-> place you were: jess's rooom

LOVE...
[First crush] – dave cichonski
[you believe in love at first sight?] – yep
[you believe in "the one?"] – yes im with him
[Are you a tease?] – nope.
[Too shy to make the first move?] – yes
[Do you like someone?] – yes.
[Relationship or hook-up?] – relationship.

BASIC
[Relationship Status] - practically married
[Shoe size] – 8
[Parents still together] - nope
[Siblings] – Sam, Jack, Zach, Hannah
[Mood] - tired and bored

FAVORITES
[Colors]- green
[Numbers]- 19
[Animal] – kangaroo
[Book] – of mice and men
[Flower] – gerber daisies

DO YOU...
[Color your hair?] – yes
[Twirl your hair?] – yea
[Have tattoos?] – nope
[Cheat on tests?] – yes everyone has once
[Like roller coasters?] – i could ride them all day
[Wish you could live somewhere else?] – everyday of my life
[do you like cleaning?] – when im angry i clean
[Write in cursive or print?] –im kinda in the middle
[Know how to drive?] - yep
[Ever get off the internet?] – sometimes

HAVE YOU EVER...
[Been in a fist fight?] – not yet
[Considered a life of crime?] – nope
[Been in love?] - yes
[Made out with JUST a friend?] – yea
[Been in lust?] – yes
[Used someone] – hopefully not
[Said "I love you" and didnt mean it?] - nope
[Been used?] – my life story.
[Kicked someone in the nuts?] – yep
[Stolen anything?] – a chapstick lol....
[Held a gun] – yep a pellet gun with my dzdadu

CURRENTS...
[Current clothing] – sweats and a t shirt
[Current taste] – pizza
[Current hair] – down and messy
[Current thing I ought to be doing] – sleeping
[Current cd in stereo] – my computer music
[Watching?] – nothing. my bitch roomate took the tv
[Last movie you saw] – why is this question here again
[Last thing you ate] – pizza
[Believe there is life on other planets?] - nope
[Remember your first love?] – yes. im in it
[Read the newspaper?] – not usually.
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?] - yes
[Hate yourself?] - sometimes
[Have an obsession?] – yep...the show yo momma is my favorite
[Collect anything?] - stds....haha kidding
[Close friends?] – yes a few
[Like your handwriting?] – nope

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 04:06:20 GMT

Why is it that no one is ever happy andymore... like honestly stuff does go wrong yea, but learn ways to deal with it...I love my friends to death, but i would love to be able to have an entirely happy day without hearing anyone bitch or moan to me that their life sucks...like honestly im fet up...i will be there always, but serisouly try to grin and bear it....i tey to have one good day and it ends up as me listening to a friend complain about how they never have anyhting go right...well seriously, would you rather be a poor kid in africa with the ebolla virus...honestly untill you have that your life does not offcially suck....

I know i was totally a hypocrit cause i just bitches but serisouly...everyone needs to eat flan...like in the sabrina the teenage witch show when sabrina made this flan that made everyone happy....thats what i need....

Hmmmm

_{I was sitting waitin wishin......}^{FOR A HAPPY DAY!!!!}

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 23:30:11 GMT

I do the best that i can, i can only do so much. There is shit going on in my life too.

The girls i live with are assholes
I miss my family and my sister
Anatomy is kicking my ass
I miss my grandma
I don't ever see my dad
People talk shit about me constantly
I am always broke
I have to work hard for everything i get
I miss seeing my boyfriend and when i do see him he is tired cause his life is so busy.
I am nieve
I do to much for other people and don't consider myself

Lately i just feel like i'm not good enough, people are changing and it sucks...i need to learn how to deal with it, cause i have a feeling im about to loose some more people in my life...

I also realized today that i am not "solid"....Don't know what that means, but last time i checked i wasn't a bowl of jello....

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 01:45:01 GMT

i thought that moving on from my old friends in highschool would be the one thing that would make me happy.... and sometimes it does but then other times i wish things were different....

the few good friends from highschool i still have are great, but i wish there was more...

i dont know what is going on anymore...ive lost more than ive gained......

fuck me

and i ask myself,
who do it wanna be
do i wanna throw in the key
and invent a whole new me
and i tell myself no one..
no one,
don't wanna be no one
but me

Fri, 17 Feb 2006 04:36:26 GMT

YOU [Relationship Status] - practically planning my wedding lol...<3 [Shoe size] - 8 [Parents still together] - no [Siblings] - Sam, Zach, Jack, Hannah [Pets] - fred and ginger FAVORITES [Number]- 19 [Color] - tourquoise [Animal] - soft coated wheaten terrier [Book] - the enormous egg [Flower] - gerber daisies melt my heart DO YOU [Twirl your hair?]- who doesn't [Have a Tattoo]- nope..no thank you [Cheat on tests?] - everyone has [Like Rollar Coasters]- Love them.... [Wish you could live somewhere else?] - yes [Like cleaning?] - i clean when i am upset [Write in cursive or print?] - its a crazy mixture [Know how to drive?]- yea [Are you a tease?] - nope not at all [Too shy to make the first move?] - nope thats how i met my sweetie ARE YOU A [Daydreamer] - yep [Sarcastic] - very [Talkative] - bigtime WOULD YOU RATHER [Pierce your nose or lip?] - my nose [Be serious or funny?] - funny ...im never serious ARE YOU [Simple or complicated?] - simple i hope ABOUT YOU [What time is it] - 11:27 [Name] - Alli [Nickname(s)] - alli, al, cookie, WHAT DO YOU WANT [Where do you want to live] - in a house with my boy someday..i dont care where [How many kids do you want] - 2 a older boy and a younger girl [What kind of job do you want] - A nurse [Do you want to get married] - yes...when i am 25 or 26 UNIQUE [Nervous Habits] - i lick my lips and bite my nails and chew on things [Are you double jointed] - nope [Can you roll your tongue] - nope [Can you raise one eyebrow] - nope [Can you cross ur eyes] - no they will stick that way [Do you make your bed daily] - no way CLOTHES, ETC [Which shoe goes on first] - left [Ever thrown one at someone] - yep [How much money do you carry in your pocket]- none..im broke IN THE LAST MONTH HAVE YOU [Bought something] - um food [Sang] - yep in the shower [Felt stupid] - obviously [Missed someone] - yes. [Gotten drunk] - yes [Watched Cartoons] - yep [Lied] - yea LAST PERSON THAT [Slept in your bed] - me [Saw you cry] - jacki [Made you cry] - the bitches in my suite [Said 'I love you' to you] - matt HAVE YOU EVER [Been to California] - nope [Been to Canada] - yes [Been to Europe] - nope. [Liked someone from far away] - nope [Wished you were the opposite sex] - during that time of the month

Things are going crazy lately

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 22:43:37 GMT

I havent updated in a while....but lets see the things that happened

- i passed out in my first anatomy lab

-got a minor concussion

+ started going to the gym again

- realized the girls in my suite are bitches and i hope their plabne crashes on the way to florida

+ applied to be an RA

+ the building director loves me already and wants me on her staff

+ passed my math test after the 7th time

it's been a rollercoaster... i love going to school here but the girls are complete bitches, i dont know how much more i can stand. And in any other circumstance i would be ok, but the fact that im always in the room by myself sucks...I guess my RA training already started. The fact that they come in my room and ask my roomate to go watch american idol with them and then shut the door makes me feel unwanted.... it blows...whatever...i know i have friends back home but i could some up here....

Sat, 14 Jan 2006 02:09:32 GMT

so im about to sound really selfish,

but the fact that Matt works all the time , sucks

i never see him, ive been home for a month and except for holidays ive like never seen him, and i know once i go back to school he wont be able to get any weekends off to see me...it sucks i miss him...<3

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 03:37:37 GMT

I was watching the biggest loser today and i realized, although i may not be as big as those people..but i still need to loose a few pounds,

i know matt will love me even if i weigh as much as a whale, but i dont like the way i look, so once i go back to school, im starting a work out routine...not a diet, cause i love food, so it will just be working out....

hmmmm

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 03:14:35 GMT

This is by no means a retraction to my last post because that post was exactly how i felt...but i didnt mean to make it seem like my real friends arent there for me, cause i know they are...its my fault for not asking for help when i need it. i dont know why im like that, i just never really had friends that ive kept for long, i moved alot when i was little so that took away a lot of friends, and all the friends i had when i was little we all grew apart cause o yeah they bacame "to cool for everything stuck up bitches" but hey thats fine, actually i think i saw one on a commercial for the cocaine diet....... i guess i just miss hanging out with my friends more than anything....

like it made me think do i only hang out with matt,,, no i dont, most of the time i do because he is all i have left and i dont want that to sound bad, but when i come home i would rather hang out with my friends beacause i see matt almost every weekend at school, and my friends i dont, and when i say friends i mean Kerrie, shes all i have back home.

Thereasa lives right next door but she is busy alot and she has school so its hard too hang, but i know she will always be my friend.

maybe im just lame and screwed up or something, my new idea is that i think that there are two kinds of friends, friends you have in person and friends you keep in your heart.....

fuck the in person ones, i just want the ones that will stay in my heart, you know the ones that will stand right next to you on your wedding day, the ones who the night before your wedding day took you out and got you trashed and gave you bags under your eyes and a hangover on your wedding day, the ones who go out to eat with you and order just as fattening foods as you do cause duh they like them too and we dont give a shit, the ones who will make you spend tons of money you know you dont have beacuae they give you that speech about "not treating yourself enough", the ones who call in the middle of the night because they need to tell you what happened with their boyfriend, the ones who will go and get a coffee with you and just start drinking it when you are already finihed and just laugh it off (girl that ones you)......

those are the ones i want.....and i know i have a few and i think tonight i realized thats all i need....and matr of course...hahaha....

so for now,

carrie bradshaw....hahaha just kidding ive been watching too much sex in the city.....

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 00:42:00 GMT

i guess its like the song goes

"make new friends, but keep the old, one is silver and the others gold....."

i'm silver... not sterling, im cheap silver that turns your finger green after an hour. I realized today that i dont have a best friend, nor do i really have any friends barely at all. This whole vacation ive sat on my ass by myself. I dont mind calling people to hang out, but sometimes i wish people would call me. It's something ive dealt with my whole life and i guess i just have to get used to it. I am always there fo my friends through thick and thin...but the one time i need friends the most every is too busy... i dont even know what to do anymore, things suck. I have Matt and my sister and thats about it. Even people who i thought i could count on have left me in the dust. calling people to hang out isnt hard and im not complaining about always being the one to do it, but sometimes it would be nice to get a call from someone without me starting it. I understand people have boyfriends and girlfriends but just remember when bad things happened and it was stuff you couldnt talk to the boyfriend or girlfriend about, whoo was there to listen and take your mind off of it.......me.........I dont think people treat me like shit and im not trying to get any sympathy whatsoever, but i just want a true friend.

**WANTED**

a friend, girl or guy, has time to hang out, but still has a life, someone ho will act the same to me as i do to them, a fun person, who doesnt only like to party and do drugs, a compacionate person with a real heart....just a friend....thats it.....

i dont know what happened, like i thought i had friends i thought i had tons of friends, but i realized i never had any friends at all.

I'm just really hurt......

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 04:45:43 GMT

confess that in 2005 you...
( ) stayed single
( ) got your first kiss
(x) kissed someone new
( ) made-out for the first time
(x) made-out in/on a car
(x) kissed in the snow
(x) kissed in the rain
(x) fell in love
(x) had your heart broken
(x) broke someone else's heart
( ) had a stalker
(x) had a good relationship with someone
( ) questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) gotten someone else pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) gotten married
( ) had a divorce
( ) had a gay marriage
( ) kissed someone of the same sex
(x) dated someone you'll never forget
( ) done something you've regretted
( ) lost your true love
( ) lost faith in love
(x) kissed under miseltoe
WORK/SCHOOL
( ) got a promotion
(x) got a pay raise
(x) changed jobs
( ) lost your job
(x) quit your job
(x) dated a co-worker
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
( ) got fired from your job
( ) got straight A's
(x) met one teacher you really like
(x) met one teacher you really hated
( ) found the subject you love
( ) failed a class
(x) cut class
(x) skipped school
(x) got into a fight with a classmate
(x) did something you were proud of
( ) discovered a new talent
(x) gave the teachers a reason to teach
( ) proved yourself an idiot
( ) embarassed yourself in front of the class
( ) fell in love with a teacher
( ) got lead in the school play
( ) made a varsity team
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget
OTHER
( ) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
(x) double-dipped
( ) skinny-dipped
(x) went to a sleepover
( ) went to camp
( ) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
(x) laughed till you peed in your pants
( ) flirted shamelessly
( ) visited a foreign country (canada :oD hehe.)
(x) visited a foreign state
(x) cooked a disasterous meal
(x) lost something important to you
(x) got a gift you adore
(x) realized something new about yourself
( ) went on a diet
( ) tried to gain weight
(x) dyed/bleeched your hair
( ) came close to losing your life
( ) someone close to you died
(x) went to a party
(x) drank alcohol
(x) drank alchohol underage
( ) did a drug
( ) got drunk
( ) got arrested
(x) read a great book
(x) saw a great movie
( ) saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
(x) saw your favorite band/artist live
(x) saw someone famous in person
(x) did something you want to tell everyone
(?) Enjoyed this year overall

stole this from my bestest friend ever....

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 22:54:15 GMT

10 things you've always wanted to say to 10 different people, but don't say who they are.

1. I want to have you babies...!!!!!
2. your the best friend i've ever had, and i really hope you think of me that way too.
3. you need to see what kind of girl you have ..because she is amazing
4. you guys are bitches and in five years when you have gone nowhere i cant wait to see you then.
5. sometimes i wish we were still friends
6. i wish you lived closer to me cause i miss you
7. you make college a living hell i hope you get the hell out of my life
8. the way you talk shit about me makes it easier for me to hate you
9. i cant wait to see you again
10. you smell so bad

Well Thats all folks :(

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 15:26:59 GMT

This is going to be a very hard vacation....

:(

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 06:57:07 GMT

God,
I dont care about my classes, i dont care about anyhting that happens to me. All i want for Christmas is my grandma to be there. I dont want her to suffer but i love her and i know she loves Christmas and i know she wants to be there. Please take care of her...<3 please.....

<3
alli

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 05:42:16 GMT

1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you think? I hate how i am working so hard that i have bags under my eyes and nothing to show for it.

2. How much cash do you have on you? 37 cents

3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"? rest

4. Favorite planet? pluto cause its also a disney character

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone? home

6. What is your favorite ring on your phone? techno,,,,, cause its matt calling me

7. What shirt are you wearing? a boys white tee

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing: target slippers

10. Bright or Dark Room? dorm dull

11. Where do you want to go out to eat next? Moose tracks

12. How many broken bones have you had? 3

13. What were you doing at midnight last night? in pain from period cramps

14. What did your last text message you received on your cell
say? nothing i cant send texts

15. Where is ur nearest 7-11? back home...boy do i miss it

16. What's a saying that you say a lot? im not gunna lie

17.Who told you they loved you last? matt

18. Last furry thing you touched?: my teddy bear

19. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past three Days?: my period meds

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? none

21. Favorite age you have been so far? i love being 18

22. Your worst enemy?: dont give a shit if i have one

23. What is your current desktop picture? me and matt

24. What was the last thing you said to someone? goodnight to jacki

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret, which would it be? i dont regret anything...so show me the money

26. Do you like someone?: i love matt

27. The last song you listened to?: pin your wings

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 22:26:32 GMT

Dear Santa,

This year i really don't want anything big for Christmas. I want to have a great day with Matt and my family. Then i want my best friend Kerrie to finally be happy again. Also i want to be healthy... But mostly i want to pass anatomy.....please Santa can i get these things....

alli

p.s. im leaving good cookies...